I haven't blogged in several days mainly because I've been busy, but also I just don't give a shit some days. My depression has been getting worse. Most days are great and I'm so happy and content, but every so often I get in a funk and I just don't care about anything. The past couple of days have been bad...even now I just feel 'bleh'. I don't want to work or do anything for that matter. I just want to stay home with my man and sleep. Thank the Flying Spaghetti Monster in the Sky I have him in my life; he keeps me sane and laughing.
I went to Omaha for work last week, which was nice but I was so unhappy being away from home. I also saw how great it is at the main office...everyone laughing, joking and having a good time while working. Morale was awesome there and it made me a little jealous. For the most part we don't have that where I am, even though it's all the same organization and we're all trained the same. Our work environment is so stressful and I think that's partly why I've been in this funk; I didn't want to come back to it. I make very good money where I am and the benefits are great, but I find myself wondering if it's worth it. I have opportunities later to advance and that's what keeps me going but are things ever going to change there?
I just got back from the doctor for a follow-up after my upper GI/colonoscopy almost two weeks ago. He said my bowels were just about the worst he's ever seen. Apparently he couldn't advance the camera as far as he wanted because my insides kept clamping down. He even showed me some pictures and I swear I saw a face in my colon. Also my stomach is irritated so we're trying a new pill for that. Fun stuff.
We have a new pet, a 5' corn snake. It's the most awesome thing ever! Yea, that was random.
I don't have anything else; I just have to go day by day.
Peace n' Blessings
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