I know it's been a couple of months... I have a reason, really! My netbook crapped out on me from a virus and I've had to do everything on my phone. I finally got my daughter's old laptop out and am using it until I get mine fixed. Windows 2000...ugh.
Suddenly, I felt the urge to blog again.
I was looking through old pictures of my man today after he left for work. I was actually looking for a spare mouse and saw them on the bookshelf. I plopped down right on the floor, giggling to myself over the photos of him as a little tyke. Honestly, he was adorable and his parents looked amazing. I almost felt like I was part of their family for one brief moment. Then I started missing him and got on Facebook to look at more recent pics. I used to do that when we first got together and I was still in Oklahoma. I'd stare at his face on my screen for hours while "Somewhere Out There" played in my head. Yea, I'm a sap, but I'm in love.
Anyway, back to my point...
I started thinking about his ex girlfriends...I hear random stories about them once in awhile and have seen pictures of a couple. Believe me, it doesn't bother me when their names get brought up in conversation, but today was different. Something hit me...some voice in my ear saying, "You're not good enough."
I feel like that quite often, but can usually push the thoughts away. Today I can't.
I'm not as pretty, I don't make him happy, I'm too fat, I don't take care of him like I should... the list goes on. I promise I'm not fishing for compliments, this is really what I think when I look in the mirror.
How do you prove to someone you love you're the best for them, when you don't believe it yourself?
